Now I realized that everything was just a dream.
Because my love for you is greater than any amount of pain you’ve caused to me.
I haven’t really blogged about anything lately so I thought to myself, why not do one right now since I have an hour break before my Yoga class starts at 2pm.
Chapter 1: School, internship, sorority.
It’s been 3 weeks into school @ CSULB & already I’m overwhelmed with stress. Probably because 1) it’s my last semester as an undergrad; 2) I have to find an internship by Sept. 23 or else I have to drop the class & re-take it again during the Spring semester; and 3) I have to pick up a little sis and make sure she stays so my family line is still alive. You would think I would be so excited to finish school, which I am - don’t get me wrong or anything, it’s just that I didn’t think I would finish this semester. So now I have to file for a late graduation & the fee for that is an extra $10 on top of the $45 that I need to pay for graduation. My wallet’s kind of tight right now since I have save up for my little sis, new car, rent, bills, etc. Another thing that’s been bugging me lately is trying to find an internship for Health Care. I didn’t think it would be so hard but then again, I am competing with 60+ HCA students for the internships. I’ve sent out my cover letter & resume to the prospective internships that I would hope to get. Now all I have to do is wait & pray that I get into at least one by Sept. 23 or else, I would have to drop the class which hopefully is not the case. As for the little sis, I just hope whoever I get this year will stay. In the past, I admit that I was really judgmental when it came to who I wanted to pick up. But now, I realize that people who I thought weren’t going to last, stayed & vice versa. I just want a cool little sis that can relate to me :), after all, I’m pretty cool myself haha.
Chapter 2: Random thoughts
There’s this really cute Taiwanese guy in my Tennis class that I met today. Actually, I met him the first day of class. I finally got the courage & struck a conversation with him today. I asked about his tattoo. He told me that it was “Save by God” in Latin. I thought it was pretty neat just because I’m into tattoos myself. I love sharing common interests with strangers even if it’s about something so trivial. I was thinking about dropping Tennis just because I thought it was useless going to class on MW just for recreational purposes but now I have other reasons to attend haha! Thank you cute Taiwanese guy for giving me a reason to go to class every MW :) haha I kid, I kid. The only reason I’m keeping Tennis & Yoga is for the status of a full-time student, otherwise, I would’ve dropped those classes in a heartbeat. Speaking of Tennis, after practicing hitting the ball for the past 2 classes, I realize that I suck. I know I didn’t suck this much back in high school when I did played Tennis on a regular basis. Who knew giving it up for 5 years would make me lose my skills. I feel like such an amateur. Then again, I am to blame because I haven’t touched my racket for 5 years - actually, I don’t even know where I put my racket I had back in high school. I think I’m going to try to find it over the weekend & hopefully, during my free time, I could start playing Tennis leisurely. I kinda miss playing for fun! If anyone’s up for a good session, let me know! I’m totally down to play.
I loved you yesterday. I love you still. I always have, I always will ♥.
When you feel alone, just look at the spaces between your fingers and remember that’s where mine fit perfectly.
Love is having your heart feel like an overcrowded lifeboat. You throw your pride out to keep it afloat, and your self-respect and independence. After a while, you started throwing people out – your friends and everyone you used to know. And it’s still not enough. The lifeboat is still sinking, and you know it’s going to take you down with it.
I am a victim of that sinking lifeboat.
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn’t, nothing can make him stay.